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...yeah, no, I haven't been posting much.

So there was this game I was playing, and the end of it SUCKED, and every time I start thinking about it I get riled again, so I don't want to talk about it.

And there was this con I went to, and while there were some really AWESOME moments, the frustrating and/or depressing ones seem to have outweighed them, so I don't really want to talk about that, either.

And then one of my oldest friends (and one of my first boyfriends) took his own life this weekend, and I don't even KNOW what to say about that.

Try me again in a couple of weeks.

This entry was originally posted at http://kshandra.dreamwidth.org/1257497.html. Feel free to comment in either location.

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janetmiles
Aug. 29th, 2011 08:14 pm (UTC)
*offers a hug, and some quiet sitting-with, if desired*
kshandra
Aug. 29th, 2011 08:31 pm (UTC)
Quiet company sounds lovely, thank you.
fimbrethil
Aug. 29th, 2011 08:20 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry life is so full of suck right now and very sorry for your loss.
kshandra
Aug. 29th, 2011 08:35 pm (UTC)
Thank you.
teddywolf
Aug. 29th, 2011 08:23 pm (UTC)
*hugs* should you want 'em
kshandra
Aug. 29th, 2011 08:36 pm (UTC)
*tucks them away for later*
kyburg
Aug. 29th, 2011 08:40 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry. Add on to the fact that doing *anything* right now beyond the usual takes logistical feats of gargantuan quality, and yeah. That.

I'm sorry.
scotis_man
Aug. 29th, 2011 08:51 pm (UTC)
*hugs*
virtualvirtue
Aug. 29th, 2011 08:52 pm (UTC)
*hugs if ya want*
autographedcat
Aug. 29th, 2011 09:23 pm (UTC)
Oh hon. *hugs* take all the time you need.
figmo
Aug. 29th, 2011 10:02 pm (UTC)
*HUGS*

This was one time when I didn't like being right. :-(
capplor
Aug. 29th, 2011 10:30 pm (UTC)
You know that you have our hugs, should you want them, too. Paul was also our friend.

Now go get a sanity break.
browngirl
Aug. 29th, 2011 11:02 pm (UTC)
I am very, very sorry, my friend. I'm thinking of you.
baratron
Aug. 29th, 2011 11:12 pm (UTC)
Well, that sounds quite unpleasant all round. Have some *hugs*.

What game were you playing that sucked at the end? Curious as to whether it's one I've played.
kshandra
Aug. 29th, 2011 11:16 pm (UTC)
Sadly, it was A Map of the Floating City, which I was so excited about when it launched.... Now that it's over, I'm going back to Wizard101; as I noted to gridlore last night, something designed for kids with NO META-PLOTS is just the palate cleanser I need.
catnip13
Aug. 29th, 2011 11:57 pm (UTC)
How hard is W101 to play? I have a budding MMORPG player here ...
sbisson
Aug. 30th, 2011 03:41 pm (UTC)
Things did get rather confused near the end, and that scoring system was just plain weird. But it was fun, and we did build a cracking online community in only two months.

I'm going to keep focusing on the good stuff there.
glinda_w
Aug. 29th, 2011 11:36 pm (UTC)
I am so sorry for your loss, and for the general suck. (It seems to be going around.)
guruwench
Aug. 30th, 2011 12:12 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry for your loss, and for the general suckitude. *offers to sit quietly with you and make tea*
marchenland
Aug. 30th, 2011 12:33 am (UTC)
*hugs* hon. I didn't know he'd killed himself. I am so sorry...

FC is sucking right now by NOT being there anymore, too. I feel slightly empty without it. But I don't want to wander into the chat and feel like a total loser.
kshandra
Aug. 30th, 2011 01:15 am (UTC)
I didn't have confirmation until earlier this morning (and I wasn't going to ask), though it seemed the most likely cause. He'd been shafted by his previous employer earlier in the year, and it just broke him. He didn't believe in his ability to do anything anymore. gridlore and I saw him and his wife (though not their kids) at Worldcon last week, after seeing them over the 4th of July weekend at another con, and the extent to which he had...shrunk...was terrifying.
drewkitty
Aug. 30th, 2011 01:42 am (UTC)
$COUPON, for hugs or a $BEVERAGE or #EMOTE or whatever sounds nifty at the time.

Best wishes in this time of suckage.
mdlbear
Aug. 30th, 2011 02:47 am (UTC)
(((((hugs)))))

Yeah; that caught us off-guard, too. Sucks. As far as I'm concerned this whole damned year can go back where it came from and start over.
notalwaysweak
Aug. 30th, 2011 03:11 am (UTC)
I'm sorry about all of this, and you have my condolences on your loss. Sending good vibes your way.
dandelion_diva
Aug. 30th, 2011 10:10 pm (UTC)
That all really sucks.

My deepest condolences on your friend.

Good thoughts on the way.

Love you.
hitchhiker
Aug. 31st, 2011 03:40 am (UTC)
sorry things are sucking :(
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