Originally posted by itsamellama at Raising Funds to Move Out (Sooner)
Hello. Most of you know me as Mel. I don't have many words, but the gist is this: I have badly wanted to move out of my current place of residence for several years now due to constant emotional abuse, a negative environment, and physically unsafe/unhygienic housing conditions. I have tried my best to endure, delaying my moving out year by year, but I believe I am now at my utmost limit as tonight, I had the most intense suicidal thoughts I have had in a long time, and I am afraid of what may happen if this continues.
I want to stress that I will still try my best to save up for moving out on my own. I do have a part-time day job, and sometimes I get some tiny extra income here and there freelancing. However, anything I receive will help me get one step closer to moving out - and helping my mental and emotional health - sooner.
My original plan was to move out December 2015 (July 2015 at the earliest) but my goal now is to move out within December 2014 or by January-February 2015 at most. My goal is to save a minimum of $1000 to survive on a tight budget for three months where I live. $2000 would cover six months of living expenses. And so on.
I will keep a counter, here, of how much I've earned so far.
I know I have asked help from you all before - for my mental health therapy funds, in particular - and I am still so, so grateful for all the help that you have given me. I am so, so sorry to have to ask again - and most of all I don't want anybody to feel pressured or obligated. But if you would like to...
- donate via PayPal [or send to: mel.g.cabral[AT]gmail[DOT]com]
- donate via Gumroad
- donate via other means (bank deposit? etc.?)
- support monthly via my Patreon
- commission me for art and design
- hire me to edit your written work
- hire me to write for you (fiction/non-fiction, essays/articles/short stories/etc.)
- buy something from our RedBubble (or the FanDomination RedBubble) (we receive a small percentage of sales
- buy a pre-hand-painted notebook (or commission me for one)
- buy some ACEOs or paper bead jewelry
- buy some semi-precious stone and/or faux pearl jewelry
- buy some second hand books (I might put up more soon)
- commission me to record audio (readings?) or video of myself for you (for whatever reason)
- signal boost
... or something else, or anything at all, I would be so, so, so grateful. Every dollar, every peso helps. Thank you for reading.
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- Current Mood: hopeful
Thanks to everyone for your well-wishes.
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- Current Mood: okay
*two antidepressants, a statin, metformin, and a diuretic
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- Current Mood: ditzy
If any of you would be interested in sponsoring a transit pass for Aisu (they currently live in VTA's service area, but SamTrans/MUNI/BART could all be beneficial), drop me a line and I'll help arrange getting it to them. And if anyone would like to contribute directly, their PayPal address is prussia(at)ucla(dot)edu.
*genderqueer, requests singular they pronouns
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There was an envelope on my chair when I got to the office today, with a CD from my Amazon wishlist and one of these.
You know who you are. Thank you. <3
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- Current Mood: touched
It's been a real struggle not to eat my feelings every night.
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- Current Mood: exhausted
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- Current Mood: numb
Wake up overdrawn Tuesday.
Because we spent a third of my check on GROCERIES, for fuck's sake.
And now gridlore and I are arguing over my going back to therapy. (Figure out how I'm going to pay for it, universe, and I'll be there tomorrow.)
This is going to be an awesome fucking day, I can just tell.
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A friend requested I make this, and so here it is, and I offer it to anyone who needs it, with all the authority vested in me by whoever vests these things. Print it out if you need to.
The best art advice ever given to me—ever, ever—was "Don't be afraid to make bad art."
You will make a whole lot of crap in your time. Some will be truly awful and some will be merely mediocre. And that is totally normal and totally fine and for the love of little green apples, just keep going, because that's the only way I know to get to the good stuff eventually.
(99% of the time I feel horribly egotistical mentioning the Hugo, but I think this counts as using that power for good, if anything does.)
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- Current Location:Black Rock City
- Current Mood:dusty
- Current Music::oontz oontz oontz:
Last night sucked. Realized earlier in the evening that I was having an optic migraine; I sent myself to bed early because the visual effects were starting to make me dizzy, then woke up at 2am and couldn't get back to sleep until almost 4 (not least because I was lying there thinking "Damnit, I can't get up and pack because it'd be too noisy").
Once I was up this morning, I finished getting the rest of my clothes packed, including my post-event bag, then had to grab myself by the scruff of the neck and drag myself out to the car, or I would've been even later getting to work. (I kept looking around the house and thinking "Shit, that's gotta go in a box...that needs to go in my backpack...damnit, did we pack those already?")
If we had to just seal our boxes right now and go with what's already packed, we would be fine for the week, but there are a few more "fiddly bits and fjords" that will make the event a more comfortable one.
I'm SO ready to be on-playa. Contrary to the last time I said that in public, I'm almost ready to make the trip.
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A few data points for anyone who thinks what’s been happening in Ferguson, MO is an isolated incident as opposed to an ongoing, systemic problem.
- Ferguson Mayor James Knowles was asked about the diversity of his police department: 53 officers, just three of them African-American in a community that’s 67 percent African-American, according to 2010 Census data.
- Blacks in Ferguson are almost twice as likely to be searched during traffic stops; But statistically, Ferguson police find contraband significantly more often after searching whites.
- From the same source, blacks in Ferguson are disproportionately more likely to be pulled over in the first place, and more likely to be arrested, than whites.
It’s not just Ferguson.
- Blacks comprise 13 percent of the U.S. population, and are consistently documented by the U.S. government to use drugs at similar rates to people of other races. But blacks comprise nearly one – third ( 31 percent) of those arrested for drug law violations – and more than 40 percent of those incarcerated in state or federal prison for drug law violations.
- New Yorkers have been subjected to police stops and street interrogations more than 5 million times since 2002… [B]lack and Latino communities continue to be the overwhelming target of these tactics.
- A report on 313 black people killed by police, security guards, and vigilantes in 2012. Note that at least 44% were unarmed.
- [T]he young, the male, the Black and the Latino are disproportionately incarcerated. Put those factors together and you have almost 9% of Black men in their late 20s behind bars.
- A 2012 study found that unemployment rates “were highest for Blacks (13.8 percent) and for American Indians and Alaska Natives (12.3 percent).“
- On average, blacks receive almost 10% longer sentences than comparable whites arrested for the same crimes. At least half this gap can be explained by initial charging choices, particularly the filing of charges carrying mandatory minimum sentences. Prosecutors are … almost twice as likely to file such charges against blacks.
- There are 44 African American Members (8.1% of the total membership) in the 113th Congress. (The 2010 Census found that 12.6% of the population identified as Black or African American.)
- A 2010 study on racial motivation for hate crimes found that:
- 18.2 percent stemmed from anti-white bias.
- 69.8 percent were motivated by anti-black bias.
- The median wealth of white households is 20 times that of black households.
There’s a lot more data out there, but I hope this will help people who are watching events in Ferguson and throughout the country, and having trouble understanding where all of the anger is coming from.
Mirrored from Jim C. Hines.
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Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
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- Current Mood: loved
It wasn't until I came back out to get in the car that I realized someone had stolen our cooler.
It looks as though I can replace it at either Costco or Target today, which is great. And really, we'd been living on borrowed time, leaving the gear unsecured in our carport; we don't currently have renter's insurance (though I'll be correcting that ASAP; it was a godsend when they took EVERYTHING from our locked garage back in '09), and even if we did, that single item wouldn't come close to making our deductible. I'm just glad that's all they took; they left the 5gal. water cooler, Doug's new cot, and both tents.
But the money I'm using to replace the cooler was the money Douglas and I had put aside to go to dinner tonight, to celebrate the anniversary of his not-dying after the stroke last year, and I'm PISSED.
(And as I noted when I posted this on FB earlier, I know this just sounds like passive-aggressive begging, and I'm just too tired - physically and mentally - to give a fuck.)
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- Current Mood: irate
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- Current Mood: ditzy
- Current Music:pelpp and a.vanvranken (SomaFM - Black Rock FM)
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- Current Mood: depressed
Now, thanks to the prompt I left in ysabetwordsmith's latest Poetry Fishbowl, it is also the name of a poem in her Schroedinger's Heroes universe.
Check it out, and if you like what you see, go feed the fish.
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If you want to make a contribution in Jay’s name, please make it to:
Clayton Memorial Medical Fund
P.O. Box 5703
Portland, Oregon 97228
Pizza and Hawaiian shirts on Friday. Don't forget.
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- Current Mood: sad
But that shouldn't stop any of the rest of us from having our own little JayCons on Friday, wherever we happen to be.
Brightly-colored shirts. Tie-dyed socks. A fez, should you be so inclined. And, of course, pizza. Because pizza.
Who's with me? (And please, feel free to share.)
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I was able to go visit pentaclemoon last night for her birthday and stay up far too late chatting (okay, snarking) with her, cruz531, myrkrida, thesylvan, and KobaltBleu, and spent the drive there and back working my way through the WTNV archive (I've just finished "A Story About You"). I paid for my late night by spending the day dead for tax purposes; I finally got out of bed for good about an hour ago, and am now making clean-out-the-fridge sourdough bread pizzas for breakfast/lunch/dinner/whathaveyou.
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- Current Mood: grateful